Friends are an important factor that should be included in your life. I think that having friends is a great factor in your life because they can help you with many of the issues that come your way. If you have a problem and you are close to them, they are usually the first people you go to before your own family at times. Friends tend to be like family if not closer. Friends seem to know how to make your life feel better even when their life is falling apart too. They always put them before you and before anyone else. If you need to hangout because your sad or depressed, they always find a way to be their for you no matter what. I have some of the best friends in the entire world. They mean so much to me. I used to have so many more friends in the beginning of the semester, but sometimes you loose them through time. Usually, they aren't true friends if you loose them especially if they leave over a ridiculous reason. Antonia, Sandy, Brenda, Ricky, Mary, Yesenia, and even Estrellita play a big role in my life and personality. They make me laugh as much as I make them laugh. Even though I argue with Estrellita almost everyday, I love them all.
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Love is an intense feeling of deep affection that you have towards something or someone. Love is powerful as it is blind. Many people care about looks instead of whats inside a persons' heart. I know many might say that I'm young and what do I know about Love, but I think I may have an idea. I don't know what it feels like or how you may know if the person might be the 'right one", but I do know when you don't find it. There was a time when I thought that I did know what love meant, but it was just a false alarm because when you're in love aren't you at least supposed to be happy? Well that's what I would think right? I have learned a lot from what I've been through and what I learned is that love is not an easy thing to come by. Love takes sacrifices and yes, I do believe that I AM to young for love. Love takes a lot to work out and as a teenager who hasn't even started living yet or someone who isn't even ready for the real world isn't ready for love. Many of us teenagers think that love is in every single one of our relationships and even though I am supposed to take the side of teenagers, I do believe that many of us are too naive to actually know and feel true love. I also do believe that some of us may have actually found love, but only they know. It is said that, "where there is love, there is life." But for us teenagers, has life even really begun?
Well I'm about to be 18 and I don't feel ready for the real world. I'm actually really afraid. I feel that I am not even ready for college. I got accepted to many, and will hopefully have the honor of attending Marymount University, but Tuition is an issue. I started working part time after school, but it doesn't seem like it is going to be enough to pay it off. I am really afraid of having to go to a community college because that is not something I planned on doing. I want my life to begin, but with all these set backs it makes it more difficult. I really want to get a loan, but if I get a loan for 4 years, it will never go away. I don't know what I should do. I don't want to let my family down. I feel so much pressure on my shoulders because I will be the first Ruiz/ Vivas to be attending a University. I never though that taking my final step into the real world would be so frightening. I hope that I can get through this and I hope I'm not the only one feeling this way. Family is made up of people that love you and will care for you. Family means that there is no judgment, no arguing, only love and gathering. Although family can be great, they always have a way of upsetting you. They can do great things and they can do bad things, but no matter what, they'll always be there for you. My family has been messed up for quite some time, but no matter what, they will always be my first priority. They drive me completely insane and most of the time I just want to pull my hair out and leave far away, but I love them so much. It's hard to leave them behind, but sometimes you have to do what you have to do in order to be successful in life. I love my family, but I really need to get away for awhile.
Family doesn't necessarily have to come by blood, friends can become family. They become family with trust and years of knowing each other. Family is hard to find among others because in this works you can't trust much people. It's like a gang, they must prove themselves to you before they become apart of your family. Life is a number of things that makes you feel alive. Life can show you many things that gives being alive meaning and definition. Although life can provide you with great things, it can also take things away. Life works in many ways. Some days it can make being alive worth living. It can show you a whole new world, but it can also ruin many things for you as well. Life can take a family member from you. Life can make you loose your job. Life can ruin plans because you have to do something else. When someone says "That's Life," it's not always a good thing. They usually say that when life "hits you hard" and you are going through a very hard time.
Sometimes life knocks you down. Whether it;s your family or friends or just something happens. There's always a way that your life gets put on hold or gets very difficult to overcome. My life has been nothing but downfalls for the past year. My family broken, my cheer life compromised, and my education so hard that it makes my life so difficult to handle. Although many things have gone wrong in my life, I will never let anything get in the way of what I want to accomplish in my life. Of course I'll shed a tear, but only for a moment because then I have to get to work on my future again. Time is running out and people are out there competing and I have no time to waste on compromises. Music. Music is a cool thing to listen to, but many people might not notice that music is more than just a beat mixed by drums, a fancy guitar solo, and a nice voice. Music is a powerful voice that is filled with meaning and feelings. Music is another substance like a voice. Music is something you can escape to when your world is crumbling or getting better. Music is made up of different styles including: pop, classical, rock, R&B, Rap, and much much more. Many people have have a favorite song, but in my case it's a little hard for me to choose on specific one. The reason why it is so hard for me to choose once particular song as my favorite is because many songs have gotten me through hardships I have had to come across in my life so far. Music is very powerful and very over reaching to me. It is more than just words on a paper. It has feeling and it discusses hardships that the singer has been through themselves. Many people can show their contempt for things right through music.
Trying things is never easy. Trying new things is actually pretty scary because you never know if it going with you. It's hard because you are taking a step out of your comfort zone and that is very hard for a person who is comfortable with what they already do. For me, I made a decision that could have gone either bad or good. Fortunately, my decision to dye my hair purple,the way I have been wanting to dye it for about two months, actually came out pretty well. I know that in this photo it looks like my hair is blue, but I did in fact dye it purple. At first I wasn't really a fan about it. I felt it made me look like Barney or a witch, but when I began to actually comb my hair and everything, I really fell in love with it. I am really glad that I made the decision to dye my hair because honestly I was worried with what other people were going to say about my decision, but I honestly don't care anymore. I love the way it came out and I really truly feel more like the person I am supposed to be. I feel more myself. Many people patronized me in a friendly way about how my hair looked.Trying new things can be scary, but sometimes taking that little risk can actually give your life a whole new meaning.(In a good way)
Life works in mysterious ways. Sometimes a curve ball is thrown your way and it can either be a good curve ball or a bad one. Life can be great one day and then bad the next. But the worst thing to happen in your life is regret. Regret can haunt you for an entire lifetime and there's really nothing you can do about it. I chose to write about this because my life has had a few of regret moments. It really sucks because there's nothing that I can really do about it. When you have regret in your life it kind of feels like a part of your life has died because you can't really move on from something you wish you would have done. "Should've. could've. would've." are the top 3 biggest words of regret you could ever say. These three words have been a bit of a burden in my life for quite some time and i'm beginning to regret that I regret things. If that makes any sense. No one should ever have to live with regret but sometimes it's just life;s way of making your life just a bit harder and more frustrating. When life throws a couple chances your way, you just have to take them even if you don't want to because without a little risk you aren't make you life spontaneous or worth wild. Your just living life in a shadow and fear. Take risks and don't take life for granted. Ever!IN the year of 2016, there are so many things I can start looking forward to. One thing that I find superfluous is the fact that one of the thins i'm worried about is my senior project. One thing that I can look forward to is going to Las Vegas, Nevada for the Jamz National Championship. What this event consists of is a cheer competition. This competition is held in Las Vegas because it kind of is a big deal. The reason why it is a big deal is because this competition puts you against schools from other states to try and get the ultimate prize, a national champion jacket. This is also a big deal toward my personal enjoyment because this will be the last time I compete in National Championship because it will be my last year cheering. I really think I'm going to cry because I am really going to is cheer-leading because it has been apart of my life for many many years. Another thing I am really looking forward to is Grad Night. I am really excited for this because I am going to be able to spend an entire night out with friends on the "Happiest place on Earth." Another event is Prom. I have been waiting for the enjoyment of prom since 9th grade. I am really sad at the same time though because I don't want to say goodbye to any of my friends. But i am still excited for my dress, my hair, and my make up. Dressing up is really my thing! Lastly, I am excited for graduation. I don't really want to graduate because I am really going to miss my friends, but I am glad that I am finally going to be an adult and leave high school. At the same time I am scared, but it's life right? Cheer has been apart of my life since I was in 5th grade. I had always wanted to be in cheer since I was younger because of all the Bring It On movies. I was not very good when I first started out. I would have never though that I would end up being Captain for a cheer leading team. I never though that I can or would have accomplished and became the cheerleader I am today. Throughput the years, cheer has been my life. I never ever want to stop cheering. I hope that I never have to. But, unfortunately this past season a bad thing happened in my family that has caused me to give up on many things that I love. I just don't feel like all of the things that I saw where so Important to me just feel useless now. I don't feel like doing cheer so much as I had before, but I 'm not going to give up! Cheer has made such an impact on my life and this SPORT is apart of who I am and I am never going to deny that. I honestly not about to brag, but I am a really good cheerleader but I lost my edge when this event happened in my family. Now i see that cheer is something special and dear to me. My passion for cheer leading as a sport that I love will never go away.
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AuthorI am a 17 year old in High school, and this blog is a mix of many different topics so make sure o keep posted on it cuz you never know what i'll be talking about next!!(: Archives
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